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Saturday, November 6, 2010

as i woke up..
tears running down my cheek again
hati na sakit..i just cant take it anymore
its just hurts alot and the pain is unbearable
how i wish,he was just next to me as i woke up
i kiss his lips and cuddle him roght to my arm
whisper to his ears saying..baby,i'll nvr wanna lose u again
but i know everytink gonna be just a dream
a dream tat i always tot it would come true someday
HOW DARE U LEAVE ME JUST LIKE TAT?
HOW COULD U NOT REPLYING EVER SINGLE QUESTION IM ASKING U?
DONT U FEEL ITS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH
CAUSE IT IS FOR ME!!!
YOURE MY LIFE!! CANT YOU UNDERSTAND TAT????!!
IM LOSING IT..AND CANT U EVEN TELL ME?
WHO AM I TO YOU? AM I NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL???????????
oh god,brace me up...pls let me move on ya allah!!
WHY I JUST CANT STOP CRYING??
HOW AM I GONNA FACE THE WORLD?
when i use to be the happiest gerl when im with you
WHAT AM I NOW? I DUNNO..
just give me a path to follow god..
im bearing all the pain
pls give me all the strength..

the last oath

nana here sitting on my bed
i tk tau mcm mane i luahkn perasaan i
everywhere i go,i remind of you
everytime i remind of u,my heart just shattered
flashing back all the memories we spend together
saat saat manis bersama u terlalu manis dan bererti
saat i kata i love u..i mean it
every breath every beat of my heart,it just meant for u
cant hold back my tears anymore,cause im missing u soo much
i know i've found something and i lost something
i perna kate pade u..lau ade jodoh adela..tkde tkdela
but i havent realise tat its tis tough to live without u
how am i suppose to love again
CAUSE SUMPAH! I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!
I WANT NOTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD,BUT I JUST WANT YOU!!!
WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND TAT?
so easy for you to forget me?
haslam..tats the name tat i yearn for every seconds..
trying so hard to live without u
but boy,im simply just dying inside
every smile every laugh were just fake..just trying to tell myself to be strong
stupid boy! why must u come back...how can i promise aishah tat i will forget u..
lying to myself n her..is just painful..
aishah told me to do tis..do tat..
how am i suppose to do??
mmg padan muke nana kene tinggal nan haslam
cus im just trying not to break her heart
i just cant..but no one know...my heart shattered..my life is dead..
just when he walk out off me..im no longer nana..
the one who smile
the one who laugh
the one who talks alot
i cant cus i can get u out of my mind..i love u soooooo much
i know everythink is too late..my only wish is just to hug u for the last time..
just for the last..
i'll pray ur happiness and live
just one last hug n i'll nvr bother u nor exist in ur life anymore..
i appreciate every love u gave me..itulah saat terindah dlm hidup i..
thks for everytink..my prayers will always be with you..

goodbye

Friday, November 5, 2010

cinta kita

Inilah aku apa adanya syg..
Yang ingin membuatmu bahagia,itula impianku
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Sesempurna cintaku padamu

haslam,
Ini cintaku apa adanya
Yang ingin selalu di sampingmu
Ku tahu semua tiada yg sempurna
langit biru menjadi saksi cinta kita
Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini
Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan
ku tau itu semua,kerna ego,ku abaikan cinta kita
Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya
Jalan kita masih panjang
Ku ingin kau selalu disini
walaupun kata bibir menyatakan benci
hati ini menyayangimu syg
ku lakuan ini atas dasar pengorbanan
cintaku padamu adalah miliknya
namun jasad tidak mampu bernafas
kerana hati ini terlalu merindu dan ingin memilikimu
ku buat benci hanya untuk dirimu
yg ku yakin dikau pasti bahagia disampingnya
tidak mampu ku menipu diri
diri ini tidak bisa hidup tanpamu
hidup ini masih panjang
yang ku mahu
ku hanya ingin menyayangi dirimu
hingga nafas terakhir

Thursday, November 4, 2010

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love , love someone else .

Sunday, October 31, 2010

helo..im blogging this post at hannah house..had a great time together with her n family.such as blessful family she had,ptg2 we had order canadian piza for lunch..wuuuu...sedap! mama agree i spent nite here.they become my family.And yea..kucing dier..kitty! tembam n soooo gemok! touch2 dier until i sneeze sneeze sneeze mlm2...my idung merah ready tau..suppose mlm her family n me goin to bukit gombak to mkn dinner but psl got crite 2012,kite supper at home..still fun! n we watch hindustan song also..gerek..whoever become my future husband must tahan la eh nan my prangai suke naaa la hindustan.

its me nana! suppose nana had many dream,u know when im small i always tot of becoming doctor,psl dulu suke maen2 tu maenan..hais...now remind me of ayish..haha..swit boy..suke main krete..papa dier ckp his notty boy..haha..apeda
hmmm..happy2 ginipon im still be remind of him..tk biase for me to forget him..kind of odd after tat incident..i know people make people mistake n they deserve second chance.trying to kip telling myself to forget him..but instead it hurts cus i can nvr lie toi myself how much i love him..just a dillema..2 women loving the same person.trying to put myself in his shoes,i know how hard tis desicion can be.

All i want him to know throughout my life,he teach me erti cinta,sacrifice and hardship.whatever desicion he has to make,i'll always pray the best for u..cos boy,my heart has always been u,but also u must remember those who sacrifice alot for u.Im learning to accept fate cos i know semua ade hikmahnyer,tuhan hanya memberi cobaan.insya allah,kebahagian itu milik semua manusia..mungkin bukan skrg.

tears roll down a women cheek as i wipe her tears,i can feel how hurt it is.how much she loves him.i love him too.its easy to be a girlfren but its not easy to be a wife.dillema..

watever desicion u make..
i'll always been there for u..
even though maybe jodoh bkn milik kite..
there always a fren in me
there alway u inside my heart
i forgive u for everythink u hav done
cos love can nvr be turn to hatred..
cos my love has always been sincere..
my prayers will always be wif u n family
u said to me skali skale i had to try to pampered myself
yea i tau..tapi tats me,love is all about sacrifice..
i trust u,i trust allah..
semua ade hikmahnyer
sebgai hamba,i reda
sebgai kekasih,diri u akan tetap ku cinta
jase u,akan tetap ku kenang..
i had a dream,is to hav a happy family..
i have a dream tats to see ur family too
antare ini dua..i serah pade takdir..

i pray all the best for u..

jerat percintaan

Dalam pertemuan ini
Kita terperangkap sudah
Dalam jerat percintaan
Yang tidak disangkakan

Aku telah jadi lupa siapa diriku ini
Engkau juga dihanyutkan
Oleh arus percintaan

Tapi pabila aku sedar diri siapakah aku ini
Aku tertanya sendiri apakah akan terjadi

Oh apakah kita kan teruskan
Di dalam arus percintaan
Perlukah kita untuk berkorban
Demi pertahankan kebahagian

Dalam persimpangan ini
Ku masih terus menanti
Dalam rasa keharuan
Di manakah akhirnya

Friday, October 22, 2010

Glenn Medeiros - Nothing's Gonna change my love for you




If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go


Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love


Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too